Sunday, April 22, 2007
Life is not going well. Not only school but some other matters. I think i shall shut down this blog soon.
I FEEL LIKE CRAP OKAY. I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE. I CANNOT I CANNOT I CANNOT. I SERIOUSLY CANNOT. WHATS WRONG WITH ME. I DONT KNOW OK. I'M NOT BEING EMO OR WHATEVER. I JUST CANNOT TAKE IT.
Met kels before work and had dinner at sakae & ended up being late. We went damn high. But suddenly during work, just the thought of something made my mood crash. AND I EMBARRASSED MYSELF. I was looking somewhere else while opening the glass door, i pushed it and it was opened okay. But i walked and banged into the other one beside it. There were so many customers outside.
AND ANYWAY, I'M STILL FEELING LIKE CRAP. DENYSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Shall go talk to her now. I dont know why but i feel comfortable confiding to her.
0146am-
Friday, April 20, 2007
EDIT- 2215pm
Met Cindy after the dragon boating. Omg i cant believe she actually stayed there for so damn long. Left home not long after i settled down in my nicey nicey sofa. Hahaha but it's okay man! Walked around tm and we met a few weird people. He came by and we chatted for a while and we went our own ways. Went back to tp to check out the Jam & Hop session. Lame. We just slacked around and talked to ppl. Was fucking tired okay, so we went home. & i walked all the way from sch to Changi Hospital. I wanted to walk home ok! But my legs was really hurting so i just hopped on the bus. Bah, i'm not feeling good at all. Fucking pissed & everything. I hate everything. Every single thing that's happening now. I just want to seriously concentrate on my studies. BYE.
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I'm tired of trying to make time for us when you dont even appreciate it. Each time i tell myself to stop trying, but i still did in the end. I, wont try anymore.
Okay anyway, day2 of orientation & i was totally shag luh. Nisha & i just zao at the sports complex. It's seriously a waste of time. We walked around & went to the engineering side to chat with kevin. He's fugging enthu luh. So unlike of him. Haha. And sammy spotted us! Omg, i couldnt regconised him. Not that he looked different but out of a sudden in the midst of the purple shirts guys, someone turned and waved. I got quite high when i saw him. Haha. I like to meet people i know.
So anw, my class have bonded tgt in a way but...
Tired, shag, everything. Havent met him nor have a proper conversation with him for quite some while. Oh well. Byeee.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
My class? Nevermind, 1year. I must get into Marketing. And MR WANG KAILUN; you need not worry because there's not any one guy that can make me melt. So now, worry about yourself yeah, 26 girls in a class of 40. Great.
Clement's in the same class as denyse, and we were thinking that since we're of different schools, there might be a chance of getting into the same one, yet.. Sigh. Anw, after orientation, we saw meichin. Omg she's so pretty now & she's in BSG also. Damn it luhh, why not in same class. -.- Cindy & i went tm for a short while & i cabbed home. Quarrelled with that mom again. Damn it. PS; DONT INTERFERE IN WHAT I DO OKAY. SO WHAT IF YOU'RE MOTHER. A MOTHER DOES NOT USE MONEY TO THREATEN HER OWN DAUGHTER. I prefer my godmother. At least she talks sense into me, not the way that mom does.
I kind of want school to start instead of all these orientation. Hello? I'm going there to study, not cheer. But the mass dance was pretty fun, THAT'S ALL that interest me for the whole orientation.
BYE.
2025pm-
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Me: I wait for you outside your school tmr?
Him: Dont want! I go your house find you.
Me: I want to go out. I meet you there.
Him: Dont want! I find you!
Me: What's wrong. Afraid to be seen with me?
Him: It's not. I go find you okay?
Me: Or you dont want your classmates know you've a gf.
Him: I DONT WANT YOU TO COME CAUSE ITE GOT A LOT OF GUYS OUTSIDE. I DONT LIKE IT OK! STUPID MAKE ME SAY. So i go find you instead okay?
Me: No.
And in the end, i didnt go.
For some reasons, we had a tiff again. I'm tired of it.
Met mom and had dinner at cartel. When i was at singtel, she went shopping WITHOUT ME! I was so pissed and when i spotted her at Charles And Keith, I simply took a random pair of slippers and made her pay. And she bought me 2 tops at Edc. <3 She kept saying it's so normal and not worth the price for one of the tops but i like it luh. It's the quality man, not the design.
And i were suppose to have a haircut but she pushed it back to another day. ): I wanna have a haircut desperately. My fringe is getting long.
So anw, for him, school has started for 3 days and for ONLY 3 DAYS, ppl mistook him and a girl being couples. I believe they must have did something or else WHY would ppl suspect. Look, it's only 3days okay. Wtf? Anw, this is not the reason why we had a tiff. Whatever.
Orientation tmr. Shucks.
2322pm-
WORK! No supervisor today so Alicia took in charge for the first time and there was a blackout. Hahahahaa so funny. And it was full house at that point of time. It just rocks with her luh. She's so nice and everything. We could eat anything openly. And so, Eteng made fondue! Kels and i chiong to the back. (: AHHHHH I LOVE IT. :D Love love love. Did cashier mostly today & i like it. So, i was supposed to end work at 11pm but i DONT WANT TO GO HOME EARLY. So i just stayed on. Peifeng came back and damn it luh, i had to leave. She came to me but her voice is too "soft" so yeah, even if she is scolding me, i cant tell it.
I had to walk quite a long way home and i was freakingly freaked out when i had to walk this quiet lane. I ran all the way home from there. Luckily no one saw. -.- My mom gave me this siren thingy in case anything happens BUT, i'm no scared of ppl kidnaping me or raping me but scared of ____. -.-
My legggg hurts.
1256am-
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
I MISS YOU LIKE FUCK OKAY.
Met kels and she accompanied me to tp to pass some stuff. Tm next and we went to Genki sushi, BUT, the rotating thingy wasnt working. So the great kels suggested i pretend to talk on the phone with nobody about changing destination. Haha. So we settled at Sakae. (: Met him and shunlai after food and headed for work. We wanted to take a bus, BUT, we would be late AGAIN. So, we took a cab and whoah, the amount is so -.-.
And i LOVE WORK TODAY! Kels and i went damn darn high. And! We ate a lot! Each time Peifeng steps out, we would start eating. We would plan which icecream we want before hand and tell lloyd. Once she's out, he scoops them. (: Then the biscuits, waffles and bahhh, everything. I LOVE IT. :D AHHHHHHHH I'M DAMN HIGH NOW. KELSEYYYYYYYYYYY! And Sammy agrees to replace me on wed! Though i like the ppl working, but, i wanna spend time with him luh. Okay, maybe i wanna work. It's all guys, so it's quite slack for me.
Work ended early. Look, it's only 0115am now. I dont like it. I prefer to be home at 3am. Nevemind. Hungry hungry. Bye.
Work ended early. Look, it's only 0115am now. I dont like it. I prefer to be home at 3am. Nevemind. Hungry hungry. Bye.
0119am-Sunday, April 15, 2007
To denyse, cindy, darling, jimmy; Thankyou so much lovelies. (:
Working straight this four nights. Orientation after that for 2 days and then work again on sat. I love it. Cause, i wont see my mother for one whole week. Bye.
1347pm-
Saturday, April 14, 2007
I feel horrible. I want to cry.
No camp. No movie. No nice dinner, but just this. And it was enough. (:
Happy one year again love. (:
Stayed over at his house for 2days and damn it, if i were to stay on longer, i would be a fatty bom bom. The first night at around 2am plus, Severin offered to treat macs, so we ordered. Not long, his mom came home with more food, so we ate. And when macs came, we ate somemore. The 2nd night, i cooked omelettes for jerr and him. It failed so i fried another one. Okay, all i can rmber is that we ate non-stop. I can never ever live with guys. I just cannot resist food. And we caught the movie, The Reaping. It's a really good show. Just that till now, i dont understand the ending.
Had a good talk with him yesterday night. Left to me thinking, a lot. But dear, i love you.
Alright, going out with Jimmy soon. Tada.
1442pm-
Thursday, April 12, 2007
THE STUPID RAIN SPOILT ALL OUR PLANS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK.
HAPPY ONE YEAR DEAR! (:
I love you i love you i love you luhhhhhhhhhhh.
Yesterday, nisha came by my house and we slacked before going to tm to get some stuff. Came back home and she stayed over. (: She did A LOT for me and really girl, i appreciate every single thing you've done, for 2whole years and more. I dont think i can survive without you. Now, she's sleeping beside me and i'm writing about her. Haha. Love you babe.
Omg it's exactly 0333am now. Okay i HATE this time. Nevermind. So, camping with him at eastcoast later! I'm kinda excited. :D It's so fun luh. Camp camp camp. But i'm scared that i might be a meal to mosquitos. -.- And, what can we do! Seriously i dont even know what we can do. But camping is the only way i could think of to make this oneyear special in a way. HOW. WHAT TO DO.
0337am-
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
YOU, yes YOU ARE SUCH A FUCKING BASTARD. (: But nevermind luh, since you're born one, then, haha. Too bad. (:
0205am-
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
MY TOP ARRIVED IN THE MAIL TODAY! HAPPY. At least it gain my interest back to online shopping.
And that asshole faked that he've got a headache so that i would go down. I cabbed there immediately, he was using the com, turned, looked at me, and gave me that grin. Nevermind, i had much entertainment over there. At least the really sick kevin appreciates my medicine. And i saw him in his sexy boxers. Omgah so hot.
Went to my godmother house and she told me we're going CS to eat. I should have just stayed at his house. But, she started telling me all her unhappy stuff. When she broke into tears, i felt like just hugging her and telling her i love her. But, pride has stopped me. What's wrong with you amanda. Fuck it. Anyhow, i love you.
Jack's Place and then, popular to get pens for school. I know one is enough. But since my mom was there also, obviously i took dozens. She hardly pays anything for me. So since she's willing today, i must make use of this chance.
I wanted to go back to Sg so badly cause it's yoyo's last day and he's going back to his country. And they were telling me "got cake got cake". Grrr my favourite okay! But, i had to follow the car. -.-
BYE.
2228pm-
So, during work, jiewei called and told me what she saw. She was expecting me to flare. But nah, i had a good laugh instead. (:
He came over to my house in the afternoon and we had pasta for lunch. Did our couple jam and he sent me off to work.
And there were so much icecream left! I ate until i couldnt taste a difference in any. -.- And so, we had our Lesbian and Gays talk. Alicia and i were fighting against Lloryd cause he insist that gays are much better than lesbians. Like totally not. I cant imagine 2 guys touching eachother. Omg sick. Uncle taxi came and wheeeee. Home. (:
Timecheck 0201am. (:
Love.
Monday, April 09, 2007
Jamming with denyse and i sucked man. She's good. Nevermind, lets keep training tgt and go play rf okay! Set! Byeee. Off to jam with her now.
Sunday, April 08, 2007
Omfg. Someone's blog is so close to being the same as mine. *rolls eyes
HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAH. Just got home. Time check; 0528am.
And the first thing i saw when i came online was this,
XIAOYU! sent 4/7/2007 9:14 PM:
ALMY
XIAOYU! sent 4/7/2007 9:14 PM:
MY MY
XIAOYU! sent 4/7/2007 9:14 PM:
MIMI
XIAOYU! sent 4/7/2007 9:14 PM :
AL AL
XIAOYU! sent 4/7/2007 9:14 PM :
LMY
XIAOYU! sent 4/7/2007 9:14 PM :
LL MI
XIAOYU! sent 4/7/2007 9:14 PM :
LOL!
XIAOYU! sent 4/7/2007 9:14 PM :
I AM HIGIH OK
Ahahahahhahahaa. Fugging funny. I read it out loud to him and he thought i was singing a song. Ahahahahhaha. Anyway, in the end, i didnt go out for any dinner but i went for work. Jimmy called and insist with his own methods that i go work straight away. The only reason i agreed was because if i went, me, nisha and kelsey would be tgt for the first time. And furthermore, Jimmy was working. So why not. (:
So darn busy luh. And a customer left a 30 over dollars tip okay! Omg. But he's a mad guy. When i say mad, it means lunatic. Really mad. Siao ding tong you know? Okay whatever.
Nisha left at 11 and four of us stayed back for closing. E-teng made waffles! Omg with chocolate and maple sauce. Tasted heavenly. Mom came and she said to go for a movie, so i left at 2am sharp. I seriously thought it was a movie but suddenly, my godma give me a amulet. And i knew something was not right. We went to a cemetry for fuck's sake.
Okay i'm damn darn tired.
And,
Denyse; YES I jam! Haha. But i havent been practicing for quite some while. Nevermind, lets challenge! How about Canon in D!
Nisha; Haha but i love to hear your nags! Lol.
Jiewei; I know i know. Meet soon okay you bitch! Lol i love you luh.
And to Sherri, Farhah and Sarah, thank you. (: I'm fine already.
0542am-
Saturday, April 07, 2007
Was supposed to go out with ex-colleagues today but i woke up late. So yeah, i didnt go. So it's either i meet them for dinner or i go with my parents and eat good food. Bah what a choice. =/
I dont know. But i feel like a bitch in the past. Damn it, i must change. I WANT to change. Okay that's it. I'm gonna change from now on. Starting from my attitude. There's only 4 people in this world who know me inside out.
- Him
- Nisha
- Jiewei
- Yvonne
So, I MUST change! And i've given nisha the role of scolding me whenever i start my thing. So yes! GO GO GO! :D
Friday, April 06, 2007
I'm STRONG again! :D Mwahahahahaha.
Sending love to;
Nisha; Thankyou for waking up at 5am just to hear me talk. (:
Kelsey; Thankyou for the little drawings and encouragement you gave me. (:
Denyse; Thankyou for caring! (:
And Melissa; Girl, you've no idea how much i'm thankful. The powerpoint was the sweetest thing ever. Muacks i love you luh. (:
Went to Holland Village Haagen Daz and R was working. He started D-siaoing me and he told the cashierboy to give me discount. (: Yayness, he rocks.
Meeting nisha dearest now. (:
2220pm-
Trust; is crucial in a relationship. I trusted you. While you're out there enjoying, i planned a surprise for you later, to cook your favourite food. My mom bought tiramisu, i cut a slice for you nicely in box and planned to tell you the story behind the name. I thought of every single ways we could do to spend our one year, and i waited for you to be home patiently. And you lied, again and again. Clarence wang kailun, you lied. You lied. And i trusted you to the very end. And you still lied. Everyone knew, and i was the last.
I dont drink. I hate drinking. But it was the only way i could drown myself. It didnt taste so bad after all, cause i felt so, shattered.
0556am-
Thursday, April 05, 2007
I WANT THAT RED CABINET FROM IKEA. But mommy said we're might be moving house, so it would be troublesome when we move. ): But i want it. It's one of the things to make my room complete. Speaking of moving house; Firstly, i dont wanna move cause nisha's hse near mine and, i'll miss my balcony. BUT, i want a new environment. Then i can have my walls painted red. HOW. Talked to my mom's bf and he said we could move to somewhere near nisha's hse if i want. And i'm eyeing on the half built condo beside the MRT station. Mwahahhahaha.
Today's the day yvonne is going Bangkok. DONT forget my stuff ah. Mwahahahha.
Okay bye.
2310am-
The trip is cancelled. I was kind of looking forward cause i can shop shop shop. Urgh nevermind. Anyway i'm happy for Jimmy! He's not gonna quit HD anymore cause he found his room! It's a house with 4 master bedrooms and one of them is his. How cool is that.
1250am-
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Went to IKEA again today to get the red heartshaped carpet i saw yesterday. (: Love it. Had our lunch there as well and seriously, i LOVE the SOFT ICE-CREAM there. It's just damn nice. Everytime i go ikea, the icecream is a must. Urgh i'm missing it. His house next and we watched, "The night in the museum". Nice show. Kevin came and we just lazed around.
KL tmr. It's too last minute so nisha couldnt come. But nevermind. Taiwan this coming June babe!
And dear; bu yao luan gao ah. I'll be back on sat.
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
Ikea and Giant with him today! And sherri, regarding your entry about Giant, i kinda disagree. You cant blame ppl for going to Giant with no purpose! Blame it on Singapore for being too small. That's why people like me goes to such places to waste time. (: Hahahhaha what crap.
I was intending to just bring a pen for poly. But i saw this red minnie mouse pencil box and i just had to get it. It's red like hello! Omg. And so, he kept reminding me that i'm in a Business Course, but so what! Business course then cannot use minnie mouse pencil box MEH! Wahahahahah. I dont care! I'm just gonna be myself.
And Dinie gave me this soccer jersey today. (: Thank you so much. I like it, a lot.
And, i wanna move to LJ, but i heard the html codings are kinda complicated. ): And i suck at that. How!
2113pm-
TODAY, I SHALL BRING YOU ON A TOUR AROUND HAAGEN DAZ, SPRING VIEW.
I was bored while waiting for the taxi uncle to come. -.- Anyway, hell. Today's so darn busy. Kels and i were expecting lesser people today as it's a monday but we were wrong, so wrong. What's wrong with Singaporeans. Too stress ah. Must come and eat ice cream to destress. -.-
I was so darn scared that tracy would scold me cause i pon work on sat. Kels was comforting me outside before entering. In the end, she didnt even scold and instead, she treated us to ice cream. Omg. She's so darn nice. We were wrong about her.
When work was about to end, kels and i went to the back to dump 3 big bags of rubbish. 2 guys sitting at the side ran up and offered to carry it. When we walked off, they introduced themselves. -.- It was so embarrassing. When we had to throw boxes the second time, we walked one whole BIG round.And tracy opened a box of CRISP SUMMBER BERRIES PRE-PACK ICE CREAM for us. It's so darn nice. (: But after eating it, i was too full to eat the waffle E-teng made. ):
Urgh i'm high! Who wanna go to the clinic at mos on the 11!
0213am-
Sunday, April 01, 2007
I was looking at all the aneroxic videos on You-Tube. Gosh. It's really bad to be boney and gross to have sex with a "stick". So i decided not to lose weight. BUT then again, i came across this video. Gosh now it's really gross to have sex with someone this FAT. LOL. So i shall just mantain a healthy diet. (: