Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Now agree with me that deleting your own friendster to prove your love for someone is stupid? Well, just a random thought. (:
WORK WORK WORK. I expected i would be runner today. But sharifah and dinie helped me a lot. (: Tmr's gonna be fun. Cause.. Firstly, I am working. (: Haha. And my working partner, dinie. Plus val + farhah. Whoo. Tmr seoul garden is gonna be filled with laughter. (:
And i am seriously looking forward to sat!
1216am
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27 Feb 2007
Bugis today. Shopped again. Got him and myself a top from rebirth and some other stuff. Spent a lot. Heart pain pain, but nevermind. I'm happy. (: And i'm still not satisfied. (Okay, i realised i'm saying the same thing from my previous entry) =/
Came home, rested a while and wanted to wait for nisha to be back. But till ten, i couldnt reach her so i went jogging alone. Since he was at that girl's house, which is rather near to mine, i met him for a while. Nisha called, met her and we had our brisk walk till 11plus. (:
1248pm-
Monday, February 26, 2007
EDIT- 2203pm
Town with him today and i spent a lot. But it's okay, because i'm happy. (: Headed to tm after that. When i was about to go home, derrick called and i met him for a while. Home shortly.
Tried one of the top and i regretted buying it. So, i tried to mismatch some stuff to go along and it turned out alright. (: Now i'm happier. Jogging with nisha in 5mins time. Today, our destination is tampines. (:
Sherri- Omg yes we need to meet soon. And whoo, lets pray we get into the same poly. Then we can meet up for lunch and all. (:
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I may love someone. But, i will not go to the extend to show my feelings.
Boy, i love you.
Sunday, February 25, 2007
The world is just so realistic. When ___ has his partner. My existance seem to have disappeared just like that. POOF! Wow, i'm like your sparetire. Thanks so much. (:
Anyway, work and as usual, met dinie first. He's runner again today. But it's okay. Cause as his working partner, i would lightened up his job. Haha. We're working tgt 4 times next week. Like how amazing can. But i decided not to come on sunday, so that makes it 3. And, i was bullied by sj. Damn. Of all places, he had to mess up my hair. I HATE PPL WHO MESS WITH MY HAIR. And he strangled me with his whole arms around me? Like hello. Nan nu shou shou bu qing okay. Yikes. i
When work finished, mdm joanna and sj started smoking. I started cursing them. And mdm jo said something which assured my instinct, she went, "You're not my mother. You're not my girlfriend." OMGAHHHHH. Girlfriend? Like hello? How old are you. Old bung. Told Dinie and we laughed like mad.
Seoul Garden chalet this coming sat. I'm excited. I've a mahjong battle with sj and mj.
1226am-
Friends like them are rare. Nisha and Kelsey.
They are the ones who have been supporting me all the way. When nothing goes right, they are always there. When i mean always, it's always. Two words, "God-sent" and, i really thank Him for it.
And to Alexcia, thank you darling. When i read that entry, it made me feel much stronger, in a strange way, it does. (:
0207am-Saturday, February 24, 2007
There's nothing but just simply hate and hurt in me right now. In just one night, everything's screwed up. A relationship that has been built up for 10months and 12days. I never knew i meant this little to you, where friends and pride comes first. I stand no where. I repeat, no where. When i asked, how about me. Dont you even bother how i feel. The reply you gave me just pierced right through my heart. You said you were drunk. You didnt know what you were talking about. But do you know a drunk person speaks the truth. Now i know, now i know where i really stand. I just cannot bring myself to believe what i heard. I've loved you so much. I've always thought you were different. And, it turns out to be the same as other guys. I really dont know what to feel anymore. Right now, it's just one word, pain.
Friday, February 23, 2007
EDIT
Jogged to east point with nisha. Slacked ard before going home. And as usual, i was su ku-ing to her.
I'm really frustrated with your "so not sensitive" attitude. My feelings dont mean a thing to you at all. Who are you now. I dont even know the "you" standing in front of me. It just aches on the inside. Where's that someone when i need you.
2316pm
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My boyfriend, has turned into someone i dont even know.
So, i was supposed to wake up to catch my show. Even with my alarm clock and derrick's call, i fell back asleep in the end. Woke up late for work again and had to cab down to meet farhah.
WORK. Was runner but fun. Cause i was doing the fruit cocktail. With each mixture that i make, i get to taste it. And of course i drank it, not taste it. HAHA. And as i was looking at the buffet, the aunty saw that i liked something and she made it for dinner! Urgh cheesy sausage with black pepper (: Yummy.
J got me this pretty bracelet. Thank you girl. (:
And, sometimes i feel that i take things for granted. I miss ___. I dont know. It just feels like i've just lost
1917pm
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Took a cab down to his house at 2am this morning. He didnt believe i would, so, i proved it. The main thing that attracted me there was cause he had ALL the esp of Hua yang shao nian shao nu downloaded alr! Who wants it! Get it from me after i get it from him. Haha. Mine took ages and, i just cancelled all. =/ Watched till i fell asleep. (:
Woke up and continued watching. (: And, time to go work.
Did one big mistake today. As i was changing the hot plate, i lost control of the soul bowl and it splashed all over the hot steaming plate, splattering onto the customer. I was fucking scared can. Luckily no one was injured and they didnt pursue the matter. Instead, they laughed. Thank God.
Work ended and Dinie accompanied me to walk that long and quiet track. Thanks partner (:
Home, and i'm hungry, tired and everything. But i cant sleep yet. ): Since he've yet to burn the disc for me, i've to follow the schedule for the show. That esp is showing at 0419am on pplive. So i must wait. ):
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
EDIT - 2306pm
My same nail broke again. And this time, much deeper. I can feel the flesh inside. Yikes. Very painful ): And i've work tmr. Gosh.
Anyway, left my house at around four. Not knowing where to go. I just know i need to go out. Wanted to take a bus but hell, i've no money in my easylink nor any coins. Urgh i want to save money and stop taking cab! So while waiting for the cab, i started to make plans on what to do. Like so damn last min, even if no one goes out with me, i would just jolly well walk ard alone. (: So, in the end, i've got 2 people to meet! One's him and my godsister.
Family dinner and damn. I wanted to be a good girl and eat last. When joe and i went to the table, the dishes left were pathetic. We then vow not to be good children anymore. Lmao. They're playing mahjong now and here i am dreading tmr. I dont wanna go work. ):
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I didnt use to even give a damn about him but OMG, now i seriously think Wu zun is the hottest guy ever. His smile can just make my heart melt. Urghhhhhhh.
Okay, so i was watching serial dramas till this morning. And i cant continue cause he've yet the burn the remaining esp for me! Aye i cant take it alr! Must ren. Slept for less than 2 hours and my mom made me accompany her for groceries shopping. I almost died luh.
And i've nothing to do now! Waiting for irene to call me to go catch a movie. If she doesnt call, i shall just go walk walk myself. I dont wanna stay home.
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Tuesday, February 20, 2007
There's this someone, who re-appeared in my life. And this someone, never failed to cheer me up. In just a day, this someone disappeared. YES YOU. I'm talking about YOU.
So, met my working partner, Dinie and went to SG to check our schedule. Whoo we're working tgt for 2 days but i cant make it, so it's left to one day. Oh wells, better than nothing. (: Yayness dinie! He treated me to lunch. (: Thanks eh.
Bought this cap. The price sucks but i just love the design imprinted on it (: So why not. Since i've been eyeing on it for so long.
1119pm-
Sing along. (:
All Or Nothing O- Town
I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you'd realize
It's over, over
It's not the way i choose to live
And something, somewhere's got to give
As sharing this relationship
Gets older, older
You know i'd fight for you
But how can i fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now i want the best of you,
I don't care if that's not fair
Chorus:
Cause i want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all Or are we just friends
Is this how we'd end
With a simple telephone call,
You leave me here, with nothing at all
There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you in memories
I feel it in my heart
But i don't show it, show it
And then there's times you look at me
As though i'm all that you can see
Those times i don't believe it's rightI know it, know it
Don't make me promises, baby you never
Did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you now i want
The best of you it's time for show and tell
Cause i want it all Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all Or are we just friends
Is this how we'd end
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing..
Cause you and i
Could lose it all if you've got no more room,
No room, inside for me in your life
0311am-
Monday, February 19, 2007
Browsing through You-tube looking at the different kinds of dancemoves. Hmmm. Visiting later & i dont wanna go. =/ I hate that place. Waste my time only.
Anyway, I HATE waiting. Waiting for people, waiting for calls, waiting for this and that, blah blah blah. Dont make me wait.
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18 FEB 2007
Prepared 2 angpaos today. One for my mom, another for my godmother. Though my pay is damn fucking pathetic and low, i think i should just give a little for appreciation. (:
Headed to my grandmother's place. Slacked and then, more arrived. Mom asked where's my boy so i called him and he came down to bai nian. Havent spent time with him for so long and today's finally the day.
It was getting really late and i asked if he wanted to leave first but he wanted to accompany me. (: Had a craving for ice cream so we walked to white sands and bought one from swensens. (: Yada yada yada, and so, he left at around midnight.
As usual, before all of us leave, we had to go in again to greet our grandma, suddenly, she just grabbed my mom and the rest of the siblings trying to tell them not to go. As she's suffering from stroke, no one could understand what she's saying. But with hand languages and all, they somehow knew. It was really sad as i could see tears in her eyes. The atmosphere was just so tense. In the end, all four of her children (my 2uncles, my mom and aunty) stayed back to sleep with her. Aye renuion eh. It was really touching.
As usual, before all of us leave, we had to go in again to greet our grandma, suddenly, she just grabbed my mom and the rest of the siblings trying to tell them not to go. As she's suffering from stroke, no one could understand what she's saying. But with hand languages and all, they somehow knew. It was really sad as i could see tears in her eyes. The atmosphere was just so tense. In the end, all four of her children (my 2uncles, my mom and aunty) stayed back to sleep with her. Aye renuion eh. It was really touching.
Anyway, i've this thing for guys who wears formal. (: Bahhh.
Saturday, February 17, 2007
EDITED-
In the end, i didnt meet sebas cause he said D didnt sound happy. -.- Anyway, i carried on with my plan and went to my godma's house. Urgh the food smells damn good. But i'm not eating there. ): When i reached pasir ris, i headed straight to the food and it's not what i like ): Every single dish my godma cooked is my favourite! If only i was eating there. Nevermind, i must be contented with the food God blessed me with. (:
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It's the eve of the Lunar New Year! Okay, nothing to be excited of. But since everyone's wishing me, then i should be high about it. Erh, Doesnt make sense. Anyway, i forgot to mention i sent in my resignation to seoul garden already! Just 2 more weeks and i'm a free
Meeting Sebas to pass him D's jacket. Then i shall go visit my godma, then i shall meet himmm.
Friday, February 16, 2007
EDITED 0140AM
Fuck this society. Can you all STOP being such constipated freaks. What century are we living in. I did not do anything sneaky and have nothing to be ashamed of. AND YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO INTERFERE IN WHAT I DO. SO FOR FUCK'S SAKE MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.
I feel like crying. I just feel like. I've been fooled again and again by own emotions & i'm sick and tired of it. Just, tell me whats going on inside me. Fuck those emotions.
EDITED 1141pm
So, in the end, i met derrick again at tm. And he was an hour late. I waited for him for like how many times in one day. Was obviously damn pissed. Had pasta mania for dinner, and then, walked around.
So as we were walking, i saw hongru and junchao. Ru stood up immediately and looked over. Urgh gave me a shock. But it's okay. Cause i'm not doing any kui xing shi. (: Haha. So he left and i went to talk to them. They threatened me like mad. Hmm. My boy came along, and so, the 2 lians that they were meeting. Step lian. Give that "wanna fight" look. When they walked over, dear said something damn sarcastic. I was like, STEP LIAN LAH. Funney. But i love dissing them. They were puffing and puffing, thinking that they're oh so cool. In the end, ru and junchao got pissed by their attitude and left them and we went to the fourth floor. And this is what ru took.
Get it? Okay.
So, my love got me a soft toy. It's the first one he gave me in 10 months. (: Was damn touched. He walked me to the bus stop and yeah, i'm home.
BTW, I FORGOT TO MENTION I SAW AMANDA LOY AT BUGIS TODAY. I was on the phone when i saw her, so i just nodded. When she started to open her mouth to speak, fuck shit. Her accent changed totally. It was disgusting and fake. I hate ppl who fake accent. Told nisha and we were like, come on lah. She has been in US for only a while. Wtf.
I'm starting to hate bugis's arcade. That place is full of lians. Pissed me off fucking much. I didnt mind waiting for derrick to finish his game but suddenly in one min i was surrounded by lians. Not referring to anyone in particular. Felt fucking suffocated and went to walk around myself. Got more pissed by each minute and just left for home. He called me like how many times but i just didnt feel like picking it up, and besides, my phone's batt was dying.
The plan was to go chinatown at night with baby but now, i dont have the mood. Because i'm still fucking pissed. Any one of you people, DONT ever call me a lian because i aint no lian and i HATE THEM.
Right now, i feel mean cause i just left him like that. But, i still think he's better off without me.
Labels: Anti-lian
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Work today. But, woke up not feeling too well so i didnt go. Cheryl called me early in the morning and she came to my house from her dental appointment. Didnt do much but just talked talked and talked. (:
Left for tm to get her present for someone. And i ate pepper lunch! Omg i didnt know there's one at cs. Urgh happy. (: After which was derrick and sebas.
And home very shortly.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
"Hi. Can you help me delete all the messages i sent you before. Game over. Bye."
Hello? I've NEVER saved any one of your messages. I delete them upon receiving. (: Why must i waste my inbox with YOUR messages. And game over? Oh please. There aint no game from the start. I think you're just playing with yourself? I've never gave you the idea that i liked you. So, GET A LIFE. (:
Anyway, it's getting more and more to me that i'm not spending this valentine's day with my boyfriend. Just the thought of it makes me feel like crying. But aye. I've nothing to say.
Meeting derr now. Bye and have a happy valentine's day.
0344am. HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY. (:
Just came home from supper with him. We're not able to spend our first valentine's day together cause he's working. Damn it. But nevermind, to look on the brighter side, we countdown to 14 feb and spent the beginning of this day together. That's enough for me. I guess?
So, 13 FEB.
WORK.
Was the only girl today. But it's okay. Cause i'm working with fun people. So while working, i found derrick standing outside. He wanted me to be the first to see his new haircut. Haha. Cheryl came with her ben too. And my godma with sis. (: Anyway, did a mistake during work. But Dinie was nice to help me. (: Haha his cute witch laughter makes me laugh.
After leaving SG, ____ called and said he wanna pass me my valentine's girl present, but on one condition, i must be his gf for 10mins. Obviously i rejected. I'm not so cheap just to get one present.
Met my love then we did what's mentioned above.
Frankly, i am very disappointed. But, aye. I must try to understand.
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
It's 1226am now. Just came back from supper with my boy.
So, as planned, i went to do my hair. The colour turned out shocking for me. When my mom saw, she said, "Your hair looks like chicken feathers." LMAO. But, what's done is done. And i shall just leave it on until i get tired of it.
Outing with kels and nisha is postponed. So, derrick called and we met up. To make up to me for waiting for him for so long, i got a free lunch. (: After which, we headed to tp. Checked out all the different courses and talked to almost all the lecturers. They taught us a lot and this made me change my already submitted jae. A $10 fee had to be charged for amending it. What a greedy government. =/ Now i think i'm quite sure of what i want and i'm not gonna enter that website again in case i change my mind and regret.
So after everything, he sent me home and i met my godmother. (: Dinner sucked. We had to wait for 1/2 hour for each dish to arrive. We were so hungry and frustrated.
Got home at 11 and baby called me to go downstairs. He got me a strawberry cake to celebrate our ten month anniversary. It was only an hour to the end of our day and i was really glad i got to see him, though even for a while. Thankyou for making this anniversary so sweet dear (:
85 for supper and he walked me home. (: And, i remember i said i liked the pig junchao showed to me the other day, and, baby got it for me. (:
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Set my alarm at 0430am but i overslept. So, woke up at 7 and cabbed down to baby's house. It was meant to be a surprise but when i reached, i just couldnt figure out how to use his house key. (Dumb) So i had to call him. =/ NO MORE SURPRISE.
Replaced Faiz today cause he couldnt make it. And so, i'm working with val! All i can say is the word fun. Cause we can talk talk talk, laugh laugh laugh. (:
Quite a number of funny incidents happened today. Weird customers and all. =/ So after work, val and i headed straight for the ice cream i kept for both of us. Now see why i enjoy changing the ice cream. That's cause i always keep some secretly (:
Saw the message joe sent me hours ago. Called him back and he wanted to go town earlier on but he's too lazy now. So i forced him to meet me for dinner instead. He asked if i was wearing the seoul garden shirt and i was like, yarh.
Joe- "I dont want to go out with a seoul garden girl."
Me- "Then buy me a top."
Joe- "Sure."
Me- "And my dinner must be a treat too."
Joe- "Of course."
HAHA. I was actually kidding with him, but when he came, we headed straight to 77th street and got a top for myself (: Mom called and she wants to meet us for dinner.
So, you're lucky kor. Cause you can save your money. BUT, YOU STILL OWE ME A TREAT. (:
Had dinner at Waraku. (: My favourite jap place. Aftet that, i had a craving for haagen daz so my mom's bf dropped me there and i had my ice cream.
ARGH i'm dont know what to do first tmr. At 0930, the air con man is coming. Then at 11, i made an appointment to colour my hair AGAIN. Omg it's so gonna be damaged. And i'm meeting kels and nisha for k box. AND i'm meeting my godma as well. AHHHHHHHHHH HOW!
0234am
Just submitted my courses. Business and design. Whoo big relief. Nisha and i picked the same for the first 5. Aye i want tp cause ___ in it! Then he can look after me. But then again, i dont exactly want it that much cause there's just too many familar faces. Nevermind. Shall let fate decide for me. And jiewei, i called as you were sleeping. Get back to me. (:
So, work sucked. This group of guys bullied me. They kept making me serve them. It was irritating. Yada yada yada and worked ended.
Bought baby's favourite custard puff and headed down to his workplace despite being so tired. LOL. Chatted a while and then, he had to go back in. ): It was only 7, didnt want to go home so i went to visit my godmother. Had my hair coloured again at her house. Only strips on the ends. It didnt turn out to what i wanted.
Stayed there for quite some while and when it's time, i went to meet him again. (: Had supper with him, junchao, kevin and shunlai and he sent me home. (:
Stayed at the void deck and made our promises to each other.
Friday, February 09, 2007
Pilo -"Where's your mother?"
Me- "Erh work?"
Pilo- "I need to talk to her. I really need to talk to her." (*shakes head)
MY HEART WAS BEATING LIKE MAD AND I'M SO GONNA CRY SOON CAN. WALAU.
Pilo- "Soooooooooooooooooooooooo, you got a 15 for L1R4 and a 20 for L1R5. You are eligible for a JC." (*smiles)
WTF. GAVE ME A BIG SHOCK CAN. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I'M HAPPY LUH. I EXPECTED TO GET LIKE WORSE. THOUGH ITS NOT VERY GOOD BUT I'M HAPPY ENOUGH (:
And i'm really happy with my lit. Never did i expect an a2. So now i get 1500 bucks from my mom and her bf. They better keep their promise. But i BET SHE WILL TAKE ALL MY MONEY. BITCH.
Nisha and i were really happy. I love you girl. Really. She's like my BEST BEST BEST confident. And not to forget kels. (: I JUST LOVE EVERYONE. AHHHHHHHHH I'M A HAPPY GIRL.
Headed to tm with nisha and kels and just slacked around. Took prints and many photos. (: Oh those times. Haha. So it was left with kels and i. Went to get our snow ice and headed back to my house to get her bag.
I love you much snail. (: Dont forget to call me tonight.
Anyway, i miss those times when i was with ___. This feeling just came upon me suddenly. Ridiculous but it's not wrong to have feelings ok.
So it's going to be 11pm soon and i'm still waiting for nisha to meet me! So long luh.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
EDITED- 1219am
Just had a conversation with my mom's boyfriend about which course i should go. Of all the courses i told him, he still thinks that hospitality and tourism suits my personality the best. I use to want that course but it seems likes the WHOLE WORLD wants it. So he said that if my results are not ideal for that course, then i should enroll into shatec and they would pay for it. Aye. But shatec? I dont know.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Met J and headed to bugis again. Spent a lot. =/ Shucks.
So, guess who i saw at bugis street. I SAW THE WAITER AT THE WEDDING DINNER ONE MONTH BACK! REMEMBER I SAID IT BEFORE IN ONE OF MY ENTRIES. OMG I SAW HIM. KHENG WEI! So, i was walking walking, then this guy looked at me. I gave him the "wtf" look and turned away. I turned back again and he looked into my eyes. The eyes were so familar. AND I REMEMBERED! When i looked again, he changed his direction and walked towards us. OMG. I was like feeling so hot all over and i ran away. Fuck. I regretted. I never thought i would see him again but i did! OMG. And i just let a chance pass like that. Fuck.
Met nisha and we sat by the pool chatting. I was telling her all my sorrows. LOL. Good talk.
And it's one more day. One more day. Shag. Now it's left with kels and i to chiong on thurs night. I've night shift somemore, but she's gonna wait for me to finish (: How sweet. We just finished planning what we're gonna do and just *snap, it's friday. =/
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
1217am.
Recieved a cursed email this afternoon. It looked really eerie but i chose not to forward it. Because i always recieve this kinda spam mails.
After my bath, my eye became really swollen. But i still had to go for work. Was runner today and i kept dropping stuff, non-stop. My vision was blur and i really wasnt feeling good at all. The worst had yet to come, when i was doing the closing, the whole tub of light sauce spilled onto me. WTF. And it stinks so much okay. Why am i so unlucky. Oh darn.
As i was walking to meet him after work, i saw three familar faces at the place that i was going to go. So they were actually waiting for me. =/
I didnt want to go home in a public bus with this state of mine so i got my mom to fetch me. NOW I AM HOME SMELLING GOOD AT LAST.
It's 0155am now and i'm just browsing through friendster. Seeing some stuff that arent making me too happy. Or in another word, pissed. Well, i shall not say anymore because i know if i do, i cant stop.
Monday, February 05, 2007
Bugis with cheryl today. Spent quite some time there. Shopped, walked, talked, slacked. Had much fun. (: Ate our late lunch before heading to my house.
Upon reaching, we tried on our new stuff. Rested awhile and left for tm.
J told me something. OMG i was like too shocked for words. But, i'm happy for her. (: Accompanied cheryl to mng. So as she was trying her clothes, i went back and chit chatted. Funny conversation we had. (:
Cheryl's mom came to pick her up. A hug and a kiss and off she went. Thank you for today babe. (:Met my love and he sent me home. So here i am, blogging beside the pool. The atmosphere's great and i'm enjoying it. (: Shall do it more often.
1102am
Do you believe that a song will cause you to commit sucide?
0344am
I hate people who pesters. Oh for fuck's sake please get lost.
Saturday, February 03, 2007
EDITED 1238AM -
Was supposed to go out with my mom for new year goods. But as i was preparing, recieved a call from Seoul Garden. Gave me a shock. I thought they called to check on me =/ Hason talked to me first, then sj took over. =/ Asked whether i was fine and everything. Then i had to fake sick. Since i wasnt working, they asked me out for a movie. So i agreed. But i was trying to look as weak as possible. When i arrived, i was the only girl there. I thought J would be there but no. Didnt need to pay for anything. They paid for my ticket and sj treated me to drinks. How nice. The movie sucks. Its called Pans Labyrinth. Waste my time only. At least i watched it for free. Sj wanted me to cab home and he would pay for it but i got my mom to fetch me. So he accompanied me to wait.
Baby's at DXO and he's not bothering about me. Bastard.
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EDITED 0519PM-
I couldnt find my phone. So i used the house phone to call. Okay, so i found it. A while later, i decided to call him, thinking that the redial button would be his number. So i kept pressing redial. And my hp kept ringing. So i answered but no one responsed. Nevermind. So i tried to call him again with the redial button. And again my phone rang. So i answered. But fuck. No one was there. I was damn darn pissed and was wondering who's playing a prank. So nevermind, i tried calling him again, and again and again my phone kept ringing and i kept answering scolding no one. I looked over the house phone and it was my handphone number instead of him. Now agree with me that i'm not in the right mind?
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Work today but i took leave. I just dont feel like going i dont know why. There's just this very uneasy feeling within me and i feel like crying it out. It's a weird feeling i use to experience before. Why is it back again. I really hate myself for being so naive.
9 Feb is coming and i've getting more frightened each day. So we're gonna have a stayover at my house on 8 Feb and ton till the next morning. Kels and i suggest we sit in a circle with candles and pray. Charlene said we could sing hymns all through the night. Val said she wants to sleep because it would probably be her last night of sleep. (makes sense)
I really hate singapore for being such a constipated society. What are we studying for? For one freaking GCE O'level cert? And now they say it's no longer in use. You need diplomas, diplomas and more diplomas. O'level is just a piece of waste paper when you come out to work. Why cant i just have a pretty face. Then i can be some star or model. And just earn money off my looks. Yarh right. Wishful thinking.
I've been on the negative side lately. Where's Amanda?
SOMETHING TO GET OFF MY NEGATIVE MOOD.
Friday, February 02, 2007
EDITED 0108AM
Just found out the truth. WHY must you lie to me? Fuck you. I hate you for being a jerk.
Aaron's quitting. Alex's on 2 months holiday. J's quitting. Apple and Ken might be quitting. Everyone's quitting. No more meaning. I feel like crying. My motivation used to be sj but no more.
Luckily i have a snail (kelsey) to cheer me up. Thanks snail (: Sheep loves you.
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Went to seoul garden for dinner. (: By right, only those who worked for more than four months are eligible to the discounted price. But ken called sir kelvin to come and he gave us a discount! He gave us the free flow soft drinks for FOC and another 10% off (: How nice. So it became from $55 to $44. (:
I kept telling myself to eat as much as i can however, by the second round, mel and i were bloated and couldnt continue further. AYE so irritating! Why must i get full so quickly! BAH. Waste my money. Should have ate more.
So we sat there for around 2 hours. Talked and slacked. So ken made me write the feedback card. HEH. of course i wrote good stuff about ken and shahren. (:
I kept telling myself to eat as much as i can however, by the second round, mel and i were bloated and couldnt continue further. AYE so irritating! Why must i get full so quickly! BAH. Waste my money. Should have ate more.
So we sat there for around 2 hours. Talked and slacked. So ken made me write the feedback card. HEH. of course i wrote good stuff about ken and shahren. (:
Okay i'm mad. Anyway, i realised my entries has been about ____. Oh wells, it's not interesting for anyone else, except, maybe myself? Hah. It's okay. I love to re-read my entries (:
Didnt want to go home so early so i went to baby's house while mel went home. Slacked a while, mom called and she came to fetch me. Saved a bus trip (:
Didnt want to go home so early so i went to baby's house while mel went home. Slacked a while, mom called and she came to fetch me. Saved a bus trip (:
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I am meeting her at 0530. And i am 3 hours ahead, prepared and dressed. Just waiting for time to pass. What the hell is wrong with me today.
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Sheeeeesh. QUOTE OF THE DAY. Bitching is bad for health. (: (Random)
Meeting mel later. It has been long since we last met. Slept at 7 this morning and woke up at 11am. Aye, my eyes are hurting but i really cant get to sleep.
JUST FOR LAUGH
S (:
S (:Thursday, February 01, 2007
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Just finished talking to cheryl lim and how i miss those times. Meeting her next week (:
We were talking about everything and anything. How can plastic surgery make a girl, not known to anyone to a totally different person known by all. It's just so amazing. It makes me wanna do plastic surgery as well. But nah. I dont think that 2 words exist in my dictionary. But i admit i am really tempted. She's so beautiful. I am envious.
So topic number 2 was about celeste chen. I admit she's has a nice body, but ugly face. She thinks too highly of herself. You should just look at all the videos she made. It's so annoying but interesting. I think people laugh at her retartedness and she thinks she's just so popular. Seriously. Please wake up. Omg.
Work in 1 1/2 hours time. Darn.
I'm starving and i've nothing to eat. This made me even more hungry.
